Career choice and a little venting.

So ive been pretty unsure of what im going to do after highschool mostly because of people telling me not to do something or to do something. Im a pretty open guy and my views change frequently but ive always like music more than anything. I would love to work for a record company or something. somewhere where id be around music 24/7 because sometimes i forget how much i really love music.

Im hoping to get into a serious band once i go to college but there aren't many people who want to dedicate that much time to it. I honestly dont even care about being famous or making a lot of money i just want to make music and play it for as many people that wanna listen. Ive been focusing on playing the drums for awhile now and i can keep a decent beat but it isn't for me. Im more of a guitar player and possibly singer. Ive always loved singing and even though im not very good at it its not gonna stop me from doing it.

Im really uncertain whether i should go to college for business right now because you can't make a lot of money in music and i dont care about money its just i want to make a decent living so i dont ruin my life. The thing is if i do go for business i wont have enough time to focus on music. This is why i want to land a job where i can be around music every day so it will inspire me.

Band is a pretty big part of my life too but i dont really like that kind of music i use to be obsessed with it but now i dont see myself playing in the future. Im basically in it now just because of the people and i love listening to marching bands and jazz bands. My dad has a pretty excellent show this year and whenever i hear the music he creates i get sorta disapointed because i dont understand how someone can be that good.

Choir was a pretty big part of my life too i almost was thinking about doing it for a job but a certain man changed that ha. The choir teacher(not going to name names. i can't even spell his name) was just way to serious for a high school choir and he'd always go way overboard on shows. This would always create a lot of stress for him and he would take it out on us. He made at least 3 or more people quit that year includeing me. The first thing he did was during the musical. I had just had a seizure type deal while playing my trumpet and was out of school for a few days. When i get back he doesn't ask where ive been or how i was doing he just gets on me for not being there. the second time was a little later in the musical and my Grandma has just passed away. The day after he pulls me to the side and tells me i need to be here more and i need to step it up. I was just as caught up as everyone else he for some reason just liked to pick on me a little more because i was gone a little more.

I guess thats all for now feels pretty good to let it all out.